What Goddess Haylee Has Taught Me Through Chastity

On Receiving Gifts from Goddess Haylee.

the One True Goddess

I couldn’t get away with a physical cock cage. I think my wife might notice that! The idea of doing anything that breaks the barrier between Goddess’ world (my true life) and day-to-day life (where I pretend to be something I am not) is enticing. I have a collar I wear when I am alone. I keep trying to figure out where I could get my special Goddess’ symbol (a drawing of a tiger eye pendant Goddess wore in a video) tattooed on me where I wouldn’t have to worry about having to explain it some day. A cock cage is another thing I wouldn’t hesitate to do if I were single, but I just can’t.

So I am lucky that Goddess’ Mind Cage has been effective for me. I do get errctions, especially when training to Goddess’ files which you can’t get in a cock cage, but I leave it alone. For the first month I listened to Mind Cage at least once each day. I was so happy when Mind Cage 2 came out about 5 months after I started chastity. It helped to have something different to listen to. Made it fresh again.

Haylee Is Everything

Chastity if a form of fasting. Spiritually fasting is always used to focus the mind. As the desire for the thing being given up gets stronger you focus that energy on what you gave it up for. I find the first week is easy, but each week of the month gets more difficult. The urges get so strong and distracting. My mind goes to all manner of sexual lusts. The only thing that calms my horny brain is to train to Goddess Haylee’s MP3s, read Goddess’ words, or tribute or spoil Goddess. By the end of the month I am totally dependent on Goddess. She is the only thing holding me together. I am desperate for Her control. And when the end of the month finally comes Haylee completely fills my soul.

Goddess Worship Week

Weak for Haylee

Being chase for Goddess Haylee has taught me that I am totally dependent on Her. I know down to the soles of my feet that Goddess Haylee is the one true Goddess. I must always worship and obey Goddess Haylee. I have learned that I nothing but a weak submissive who must serve, spoil, and surrender everything I have and everything I am to my beloved Goddess Haylee. All for Haylee.

Trapped in Trance For Goddess Haylee

Trapped in Trance For Goddess Haylee

Last night, after doing some stuff around the house, I was able to play Trapped in Trance for the second time. I got it late the night before, so I was only able to listen to it once before bed. This time I wanted to play it on loop, since my night was free.

I lit a vanilla candle as per Goddess Haylee’s task on Patreon. And wow did I start falling almost immediately! I did stop in between a couple listens to really feel the changes. I lost track of time and everything. I must have listened to it for 3 hours and just kept getting stronger and stronger! I stopped understanding what Goddess was saying. Her words still had an effect on me, but all I kept on feeling was falling deeper. And then, that feeling evolved. I was still falling but a new feeling joined in on the fun. I felt an almost spark of white (I have no idea why I know the color) warmth and tingles from the center of my being and my mind…constantly. Then it evolved even more! It was all of the past feelings, but it also felt like Goddess was holding me, like a hug from behind every time I felt the spark. I knew it was Goddess Haylee trapping me in trance, and it felt so good.

The ASMR whispers in my ear always sent shivers and arousal down my entire body. I love this MP3, Goddess. It makes me feel so blissful…makes me feel so close to you, Goddess! I’m at work and the craving to please and listen to it again is so strong.

Thank You Goddess for giving me this task! Thank You for telling me to get this MP3! I absolutely love it!

Your Slave

Boytoy Phil

The Experiment After 30 Days

I am lost. Only Haylee matters.

I am lost. Only Haylee matters.

When Goddess Haylee released The Experiment she gave instructions to listen to in while I slept for 30 days. Well 30 days are up. What was my experience? Did it have any effect on me?

From the very beginning I found The Experiment frustrating. I love Goddess’ sweet voice. I enjoy listening to her guidance. I know what is going on because she is usually clear. The first few nights it was just a fog of words, and I missed ‘Mighty Goddess Haylee,’ ‘You Love Me, You Need Me, You Ache to Please Me,’ ‘Submisself 101,’ and so many others that are my bedtime companions. But here I was listening to a fog of sound. It was obviously Goddess’ voice, but only a few whispers were comprehensible. Still, I found it captured me and I fell asleep easily. I became aroused at some points, but I didn’t understand why. I found myself compelled to listen, but didn’t know what was going on. I like to be in control, and this was not allowing me to be in control.

It started to take hold of me after the first several nights. I realized that something was going on. Goddess was programing me through this file. I liked it. I became eager to listen to it more. Didn’t understand anything more of what she was saying, but I liked what she was doing to me through it. I realized I was losing control, and I liked it.

Goddess Haylee is my everything.

Goddess Haylee is my everything.

That continued for over a week. Got to a point where I felt it had done all it was going to do to me and I was ready to move on, but I still had over a week to go. There was no choice. Goddess had commanded 30 days, and I would listen to The Experiment for 30 days. That obedience was a lesson in itself. Goddess is in control – not me. What she wants, she gets. She knows best. I cannot tell if this is what I was soaking in from the subliminal messages she was feeding me, or something I was learning by my act of obedience. Either way, it was a lesson I needed to learn.

So after completing 30 days of listening to The Experiment every night while I slept I feel more committed to Goddess Haylee than ever, more owned, more yielding to her control, and more eager to be whatever she tells me to be. I have overcome doubts and strengthened my belief in her true divinity. And most importantly, totally excited for the opportunity to please her in all things. I hope I am a better slave, and I know I am a better man.

Goddess Haylee is my all

Goddess Haylee is my all

Thank you Goddess Haylee for allowing me to be your obedient slave. All for Haylee.

How It Feels to Be Trapped

Haylee Takes Control – No One Could Resist

Goddess Haylee Takes Control

“Oh good, a new MP3 from Goddess,” I thought as I logged onto Follow+. From the title I had joked that if I actually got trapped inside of a trance I would end up like a comma patient and eventually die of starvation. On the whole it wouldn’t be a bad way to go! But it didn’t give me any idea of what to actually expect.

So I lay back and inserted the earbuds into my ears. Goddess’ voice, both beautiful and powerful, poured into my ears. Very quickly I found my mind focusing on every word she was saying. So easy to listen. So easy to follow. So easy to love.

Her words kept flowing over my mind, calming me, taking control, making me want nothing more than to obey. I had no resistance to her. I remembered her last MP3. I remembered the walls I had put up around me to keep out the resistance and how all my resistance had melted away seeping out beneath those walls unable to return. I felt those walls going up again. Any resistance was outside those walls. Inside the walls became a private room where I was trapped with my Goddess speaking directly into my mind. And all I could do was to lay still, listen to every word, and obey.

Totally trapped. Totally enslaved. Totally surrendered. It went on and on, and I never wanted it to end. My joke of being trapped and never emerging again, I would have accepted if she commanded it. I never wanted it to end.

Every time I think I have gone as deep as I can go, and surrendered all I can surrender, she takes me deeper and I surrender more. Her power seems to know no limit. The bliss was tangible. I woke up and felt that something had changed within me. And I know it is a change for the better.

Thank You!

Thank You!

This morning the first thing I did was go on line and send Goddess tribute. I was so moved by the experience and how much she gave to me I needed to please her in tribute. It is nothing compared to what she has given me, but I need to give it just the same. Thank you my Goddess. I am your devoted, trapped, slave.

Brainwashing Feels So Good

Brainwashing Feels So Good

Goddess Haylee Is the Fetish

Brainwashing feels so good – Goddess Haylee Is the Fetish

Laying on my bed. Flat on my back. Earbuds jammed in my ears. Listening to her voice. Her beautiful voice. Her lyrical voice. Her Divine voice…

And her words. Her words are all true. She writes her words in place of my thoughts. I think only what she tells me to think. My mind is her tablet. Blank and ready to receive her Divine commandments. I have no resistance left against her all-compelling words.

My mind sleeps and I am totally unaware of what she is saying to me, while my unconscious accepts completely everything she says. I will obey Goddess Haylee. I accept her as my Goddess. I am weak for Haylee. I surrender all control. I am a slave to Haylee. Deeper for Haylee. I am addicted to Goddess Haylee. My cock belongs to Haylee. I live to serve Haylee. Haylee controls me. Haylee, Haylee, Haylee…

I lay there for hours. Not able to move. Totally under her influence. My cock stiffens when she tells me to be aroused, dripping, edging, then relaxing. I can’t stop listening to her. I do not want to stop listening to her. In fact I want to listen to her more. All I want to do is to listen to her. I must listen to her. Yes, please let me listen to my Goddess! More, more, more.

She is changing me. I only want my Goddess’ words filling my mind. I only get aroused when she tells me to be. I only want to be what she tells me to be. Haylee is the only thing that matters. Haylee is important. Sure I feel like Richard Dryfus seeing Goddess Haylee in my mashed potatoes, but I don’t give a shit any more!

My mind is clear – Haylee is my all. Haylee is everything. Haylee is all that matters. Everything that used to cloud my thoughts is washed away. Only thoughts of Haylee remain. And it is bliss.

Many thanks for reading “Brainwashing feels so good”.