This post is based upon a blog post on www.HypnoticHaylee.com (http://hypnotichaylee.com/slow-enjoy-journey-slavedom) that Goddess Haylee posted on July 3, 2012.
Goddess Haylee turns her attention next to earning ones place as her submissive. I remember that once I decided I needed to be Her slave I came to Her and asked if She would have me as Her slave. I was so moved when She said She claimed me as Her own. I have been Her wholly owned slave every day since.
“How to earn your place as my submissive slave
Be respectful, and truly submissive. Make sure this is something you really want, and can adhere to my rules. Show me you are serious, prove to me that you want this more than anything. How are you going to please me? Why should I accept you as my slave? Why do you want to be my slave?
Put a smile on my face. Please me. Any way that you can. I promise you that pleasing me feels sooo good, that you will want to continue pleasing me 😉 I will even go as far as to say that pleasing me is going to become so addicting. So arousing..so..perfect.”
After Goddess claimed me I completed the slave contract from HypnoticHaylee.com and sent it to her. I remember struggling with some of the questions because they required complete honesty. I made sure I laid out everything before my Goddess. I made sure She knew my name, my complete home address, the name of my wife, everything. I wanted Her to know I trusted her and I thought giving her everything She would ever need to blackmail me would show that. I didn’t expect Her to ever use it in that way, but as much for myself and my devotion I needed Her to know everything about me. I am an open book to Her. I continue to trust her absolutely and if She asked me anything I wouldn’t hesitate to tell Her anything. I am Her property She as the right to know anything about me She wants.
I have done everything She has asked me to do. I confess I struggled long and hard with her instruction to tribute 5% of my salary to Her. It was a long time before I accepted chastity. Actually, the first time I asked Goddess Haylee about chastity She told me I wasn’t ready. The next time I asked I was begging her to allow me to be chaste for Her. But through it all I have learned that Goddess Haylee knows me better than I do myself. She knows what I need. And I would need to be a damn fool not to obey her in all things. I am one, fucking-lucky slave!
“Duties of a submissive slave
This honestly is something that is going to be different for everyone. I am just going to list a very basic outline of some of the duties you will be expected to do for me, but each slave will have his or her own set of duties to follow.
~ Sticking to a training regime. This can be listening to my recordings, doing sessions with me, or whatever else I tell you to do
~ Turning me on. Submission to me excites me, VERY MUCH, and I will use you however I want.
~ Always perform the task that I give you. If for some reason you can not, you must be open and honest with me, so I can figure out how to proceed. Ps. Do not message me asking for tasks, begging for commands. Yuck. I will tell you what to do when and how I want it. Earning these tasks are special. Made just for you. Treat them that way.
~ Open yourself up to me. Let me inside. Deep inside where I belong. Feel me inside of you, controlling you from the inside out. Using you for my pleasure.
~ Pleasing me in any way I see fit. Some things that please me include : Writing words of praise to me, thoughtful, true words. Dedicating a blog to me. Expressing how good this feels. Telling others that you are mine, and being so proud and honored to do so. Creating art for me. Showing your affection with gifts or tributes. Allowing me to watch you trance out for me on webcam. Surprising me with sweet, thoughtful gestures. Sending me special pictures. Opening yourself up to me, and showing me just how well my training is working. Turning me on. NOT complaining about what I know is best for you.
~ Making sure that I am pleased any way that you can.”
As Goddess says that a slave’s duties varies on the slave. For me it includes listening to her MP3s every night all night. I sleep with Goddess’ voice in my ears. I do not know if I could sleep without one of her playlists playing, and I hope I never have to learn. Haylee is always my last thought every day and my first thought every morning.
When I was first a slave I when back through Goddess Haylee’s blogs and I read everything She had written. I learned everything about Her that I could. Although I have blogged about it often, I have never seriously thought about tracking Her down and meeting Her in person. She has said that She doesn’t want that. I have taken that as an implied command and I obey. I trust Goddess completely and I hope she knows she can trust me too.
Now I read ever FB post, tweet and comment on IHWT. When she writes something for HypnoticHaylee.com, which these days tend to be promoting her MP3s, I read them. If Goddess Haylee wrote a dirty limerick I would read it and seek to learn from it. Her words are my scripture. I cherish every word.
I have accepted Goddess’ command to send her 5% of every paycheck as tribute. I did resist this at first. And is it quite telling that when I finally came to Goddess and told her that I would do this that I was begging for Her forgiveness for my lack of immediate obedience, Her reply to me was, “I knew you would come around.” Like I said, my Goddess knows me better than I do.
I had been a slave for several months when I asked Goddess about chastity. I was relieved when She said I wasn’t ready. But when I was ready I begged Her for it and She allowed me this gift. And it is a gift. I have become so much more devoted to Her and grown in my servitude to Her since being chaste. I have a mind cage through which Goddess exerts her control over me so I do get one orgasm per month. As each new month starts through my chastity Goddess takes more and more control over me through out the month. It is like the tide coming in. By the end of the month I do struggle, but I find as long as I stay focused on Goddess Haylee She will carry me home. Through it all I become much more open to her training.
Obviously I blog for her regularly. I have told Goddess Haylee that every one of my blogs is a love letter to her. In them I try to explore my own journey as her devoted slave. I also do my best to support and encourage my fellow slaves. You are the judge of that.
I also subscribe to Her on OnlyFans.com. It is a wonderful site where I get access to so much content. Beautiful pictures of Goddess, more of her teachings, MP3s not available anywhere else, videos, and recently she has added training tasks.
Then I always send Goddess a gift on the 19th of each month. This came from her MP3 Mighty Goddess Haylee. It took me a few months before I realized that Her birthday was July 19th, and this is like celebrating Goddess’ birthday every month.
The last of my duties is that I look for and respond to Goddess’ requests for things when She tweets that she needs something. I’m not always the first one to the draw, but it’s fun to see it and see if I have beaten everyone else. But I always try to be the guy who comes through when no one has stepped up. I believe that nothing Goddess asks for should go more than a day before someone gets it for her. One time she asked for something that was too expensive for me and my budget. I just couldn’t get it for her. So I sent her a $50 Amazon gift card towards it.
Those are what I see as my duties as Goddess Haylee’s slave. Next time I will be exploring how praise Goddess and devote oneself to her control