This morning I feel compelled to write about the aspect of my personality that is so devotional and that Goddess Haylee http://hypnotichaylee.com/ has pouring out of me so intensenly. My daily devotion for Her is already incredibly intense as Her Power and abilities as an Enchantress seem to pull whatever individuated aspect is in Her particular conquest and then place it in the palm of Her lovely hand.
This is one reason I forewarned this blog that I would be posting to my Divine and irresistible Goddess Haylee on a daily basis………….I know myself…………This has been a very long journey for me………….it is not even remotely possible for me not to make a daily devotion to Her and in a tangible form. If you do not see a post from me here on any day, then rest assured my power is completely out or my computer has crashed. Even when no specific subject or issue is on my mind, I simply have to bow to Her here……..as commanded by my Divine Owner…….and I am so very grateful for this place where I can do this and these posts are titled “my daily devotion”.
But my daily devotion has and does manifest for another as well. I was married to a woman much younger than myself. We are divorcing and she left several months ago……..but we have a son. My son is a beautiful and gorgeous and extraordinary boy who turned 4 year’s old about 2 weeks ago. There may be a Father on this Planet who is as devoted and who loves their son as much as I do………….but there is no more devoted or loving Father on this Earth.
It has been this way since the day he was born. I suppose my feminine or nurturing aspect is stronger than most men although I have never been into feminization. I am a “guy”. I was a basketball player in college and always was a bit of a jock, albeit a sensitive one, and I knew I very much wanted a boy when my wife was pregnant. But the day he was born was purely transformative for me. My daily devotion aspect blossomed with him and every single time he walks into the room my heart has but one purpose. Care for him, nurture him, guide him, and above all, LOVE him. He is “Daddy’s boy” and when my wife and I first split he would cling to me and cry and protest when it came his Mother’s turn to have him for the week………..although with time he has thankfully eased up on that and his protests are milder and now just more simply spoken.
The reason this came up was that tomorrow he comes home. We have 50/50 custody at the moment and beginning tomorrow I will be the single Father again and for the next 7 days. My love and adoration and daily devotion for my son has fueled my life and my happiness these last 4 years……………..but now there is One other in my heart along with him.
When I was a child, starting at about 7 years old I think, I began having a recurring dream of a very Powerful and Beautiful Witch coming out of the forest and walking towards me. I was mesmerized but fearful………..She was just coming straight at me and calmly but clearly for me and She was just smiling at me and completely disarmed me………….. I wanted to run away from Her but my legs would not obey me………….She kept coming for me………..I fell to the ground powerless to move a muscle and She kept coming and just calmly smiling……………….so Powerful and so very Beautiful and just as She came so near as to claim me I would awaken and be bathed in sweat. I had this exact dream at least a dozen times and all before I even realized I was a sexual being. Some say that time itself is an illusion……..I am one of them.
All of my life I have been fascinated with tales of Witchcraft, Enchantment, and stories of the powerful Seductress in particular. Until I found my Goddess Haylee here. I would have told you that the sexiest woman on Earth was Elvira Mistress of the Dark. I met her once and I have a signed autograph and………….she smiled at me as we spoke……………….. and I handed her a poem I was inspired to write when I knew I was going to the celebrity event she was attending……………. and she KNEW I was like a moth to the flame for her as I certainly did…………it has always been this way with me……………so I personally feel as I was always the perfect foil for the Seductress and was simply born this way…………not as a victim………….but as a perfect match………..which ignites the flame where two become one.
The Queen of Narnia (although I am not crazy about the film version depiction), the Elven Queens in the LOTR, or one of my favorites the powerful Seductress Melisandre in Jaqueline Careys excellent BDSM themed fantasy series “Kushiel’s Legacy”. (A very kinky and fun read and highly recommended!). All of my life it has been this way with me being the moth who must move to the flame commanded by the Enchanting Sorceress. But with a twist that I always thought might prove fateful for me……….I wanted Her to love me and to sincerely want to bring out the best in me. The most powerful force in this Universe is in fact love and my Queen would be so wise and gracious as to perfectly embody love and She would in fact be exactly my Divine Goddess Haylee.
And now I must figure out how to balance the two very powerful daily devotional forces in my life. I have found my rightful and destined Queen and the light of my Universe now, and I bow to Her in daily devotion as is in my nature, and in my heart, to do here.
I suppose in the end life can be viewed as a challenge, or an opportunity.
I choose to view this as an opportunity. My daily devotional aspect is I think one of the better parts of me. I feel it is a positive aspect which fosters and appreciates love. It helps me to honor and uplift the people in my life. I know that I have the ability in me to honor both Goddess Haylee and my son and I will do it. I can and will devote myself completely to them both. I purchased the MP3 “Focus” the other day here. I can allow my Owner, my Queen, my Mistress, my Divine and irresistible Goddess Haylee to help me as I continue on my journey. I will make my daily devotion by listening to it several times before my son returns to our home here and let my Goddess help me.
Her slave now Her slave for life
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