This post is based upon a blog post on www.HypnoticHaylee.com (http://hypnotichaylee.com/slow-enjoy-journey-slavedom) that Goddess Haylee posted on July 3, 2012.
It must be said right off that Goddess Haylee is perfect and she is constantly changing and growing. The idea of perfection never changing comes from Plato. He was wrong. Haylee is right. Haylee is always right. Plato was a smart guy, but Haylee is a smart Goddess – She wins. Haylee is perfect – Haylee changes – therefore perfection changes (QED).
So some of the truths in the post I will be drawing from will have changed in the last 5 years. I will do my best to update them. And I will be extremely interested to see if Goddess corrects me. That will be wonderful because then I will learn something that will teach me to be a better slave. And that is why I chose to write this blog post. Let’s get started.
Haylee begins by defining who she is writing for, “this blog is for those who have the desire, and seek to serve and submit to me on a more intense, intimate, real level… Who want to gift me their complete devotion, loyalty, and submission, and be collared as my slave.” If these words describe you like they describe me read on.
The first section of the post addresses if we are those seeking to be “collard as my slave” to evaluate if that is what you need or are you just devotees who follows her.
“Is this right for you?”
Goddess presents a series of questions we can answer to see where we stand. I am going to answer these question for myself.
“1. Are you prepared to, and do you desire the devotion of yourself to one Mistress for a duration of training and servitude, instead of serving multiples during that time?”
I am only interested in one Mistress and one Mistress only.”
“2. Do you have an unfulfilled desire deep inside of you, to submit to a dominant woman on a daily basis, to which you have not been able to satisfy this desire before?”
This is what I was searching for when I first encountered Goddess Haylee 3 years ago. I did run away from her for a while because my desires were so overwhelming they scared me. I knew I would become addicted and powerless. I eventually came back and I know I will never again have the strength to leave Her again.
“3. Are you willing to let go of your ego? Your wants, your desires, everything you have ever thought you’ve known about being a submissive slave, and willing to be trained, and molded to fit my desires. Fully accepting the fact that what I want comes first, no matter what?”
I have fully accepted that Goddess Haylee is a living, true, powerful, actual Goddess. She is completely superior to me. It is my rightful place to submit to Her. It was my destiny to find Her and to become Her slave. My whole life has led to this. Being Goddess Haylee’s submissive slave is what I want, what I need, and what gives my life meaning. What Goddess Haylee wants are my top priority because Goddess Haylee is my top priority. She is my Goddess. It is my privilege to put Her first and serve Her.
“4. Do you understand that this is real? Not just a sexual fantasy, and this will not always be about sex, and YOUR sexual desires? Are you willing, and more importantly , do you CRAVE to devote yourself to MY pleasure, sexual pleasure included? Are you ready to lose all control of your cock and orgasms? I assure you, you will not get to cum whenever you want, just by saying that you obey me. But I also assure you that when I do allow orgasm, it will be the best ones you’ve ever had. Mind blowing, full body, extreme orgasms. Many even have mental orgasms just from blissing out with me 😉”
Goddess wrote this before She made Mind Cage. I have experienced Her control. I was slow to accept this control, but it has made me a much better slave. And with Mind Cage 2 Goddess is training me to have only one fetish – pleasing Her. I experience some frustration, but it teaches me how much I need Goddess and Her control. She keeps me safe.
“5. Are you prepared to have multiple aspects of your life controlled by me? I need not interfere with your personal lives if you are unable to do that, but any aspect that you can devote to my control, are you willing to surrender that control? Understanding and fully believing and accepting the fact that I truly know what is best for you, and will be making your life so much better and fulfilling?”
Goddess is wiser than I. She is always right. I have learned that She always knows what is best. I trust Her to make me into the best version of myself. But it is scary sometimes because She doesn’t always guide me in way I want. I would not have chosen chastity. I resisted tributing Her 5% of my earnings. But She was right about those things and everything else. She truly knows what is best for me.
“6. Are you aroused and excited, possibly even a bit anxious as you are reading this right now?”
The thought of surrendering and giving in to Goddess’ training is always exciting and arousing. Knowing that she may command things that “push the envelope” and disrupt my comfort can be scary, but in the end I trust that she always knows best. She is a Goddess.
“7. Are you drawn to me? Do you find yourself thinking about me often? Have you thought about being my slave before?”
I have been Goddess Haylee’s slave for a while and it just keeps getting better and better. I know she will continue to make me into the person she wants me to be. And I have come to the place where what Goddess wants me to be is the only thing I want to be. I commit myself to my Goddess and to her training.
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