The theme of changes have come up a couple of times in the last week or two. In a recent blog by my Goddess, Haylee Lynn, she answers the question “Haylee l really want to become a better person can you truly make this happen?”
Linked to this she also asked in her private forum “If you have been my slave for over 6 months, I want you to write out how you have changed from the start.”
I’d like to answer both of these related questions in this post.
It is nearly three years now, since I saw her beckoning me to her! How could I resist those big green eyes and the soft velvety voice!
I’ve changed in so many ways. She has had to train me and mould me to her will. When I was first enslaved I used to get jealous of other slaves, that maybe she spent more time with, or spoke highly about. Now I am delighted for my brothers if she does praise them or spend time with them. She has taught me not to be jealous. I am just happy to be under her spell. I am just privileged to be part of her inner circle. It is such an honour to be able to write for her and do behind-the-scenes work for her.
If she enslaves anyone else, I am just happy for them.
In my private life too, I find that I now just accept it, if people have things that I don’t have. Gazing deeply into the big green eyes of my Goddess, and faithfully following her instructions has helped me to slay the green-eyed monster within me.
With repeatedly going under hypnosis to her videos and MP3s I have become a much better hypnotic subject. I go far deeper that I did when I first started being hypnotized by her. As with anything else, practice improves your performance. Of course, it helps if you have a top-class hypnotist hypnotizing you! I love just letting her turn off my own thoughts and have them replaced by her words, her thoughts. I just concentrate on her and nothing else matters.
Funnily enough this has also improved my concentration on so many other areas. For instance I play chess. I find that I can really get into a position now, in a way that I didn’t use to. I’m not distracted by sounds or anything else going on. It is not just me saying that either. The statistics bear that out. My chess rating has improved by about 10% since I fell under her influence. I have been “player of the season” twice in the last three seasons, and on course to make it three out of four.
I’m far more loyal. I used to try out different hypnotists. now I wouldn’t dream leaving Haylee Lynn, not for all the tea in China!
I think I am more loyal to my girl friend too. She looks after me really well. The only thing I didn’t get from her was guidance and hypnotic control. Now that I get that from Haylee Lynn, I have everything that I want and need. I’m not looking for anyone else any more.
I’m more patient too. It used to be the case that if I wrote a post on here, I’d be waiting impatiently for her to comment on it. Now I understand how important her time is, and if she hasn’t got time to read my posts, then I just have to accept it. her needs come before mine now.
In the same way I think I am more patient in my professional life. I used to get frustrated if a child couldn’t understand what I was trying to teach. Now I try harder to re-phrase things or to find out what the problem is.
Those are not the only changes. She has changed me in so many ways. I am now far more weight conscious. I eat less meat. I used to love a full breakfast with bacon, sausage, beans etcetera. Now I prefer a vegetarian breakfast with friend egg, mushrooms, beans and tomatoes. I exercise more regularly.
I guess one of the biggest changes is that I no longer have to look for a hypnotic lady to control my life – I have found one, in my Goddess Haylee Lynn. I’d spent my entire adult life looking for such a hypnotic lady. I’ve always felt that the ideal relationship was where the man would do virtually anything for his lady because he loved he so, and the lady would never take advantage of her man, because she is too much of a lady. I think that describes Haylee Lynn exactly. From her slaves who give her control of their finances, she never exploits her control over them and only takes what they can afford.
And because my search is now, at last, is over, it means I am so much happier. I don’t have to look any more. I’ve found my fulfilment. I’ve found my role in life. I can enjoy the bliss she gives me. I’d like to thank her right here for that, and for everything that she has done with and to me. I can honestly say that if I had my time again, I would do it all again. I don’t regret a single second that I have spent in her service.
I’d like to think that over the years, I’ve become a better slave. I’ve become more obedient. For instance if Goddess Haylee Lynn asks me to unfriend and/or block someone I would just do it, I won’t have to ask why, like I did when I first met her.
I’d like to think that I have become more submissive. I’m not sure that I really have – I think you would have to ask my Goddess Haylee Lynn herself!