My Sensual Software

My Sensual Software

This post is about addiction. I have never considered myself the addictive type…….I do not enjoy drugs or alcohol over much and never did smoke…..I am careful what I eat or drink and so when the word “addicted” first come up for me as regards my surrender to my Incomparable Goddess Haylee Lynn I remember cringing a bit and not feeling so good about it.

Really? I am ADDICTED? I thought addiction was unhealthy? I do not want to be unhealthy!

Lets go to the Dictionary technique.

Addiction…..compulsive engagement in rewarding behavior despite ADVERSE consequences………….

Now wait a minute here. Are we judging D/s sexuality if we are calling it *adverse*?

Would we call a married couple who has vanilla sex 5 times a week………long and passionate love making sessions…..”compulsive” or “addicted” or consider their behavior “adverse”.

No………….I think most would say……congratulations on a healthy sex life!!!

I have been pursuing Dominant Woman for over 30 years!!! I fucking ADORE my GODDESS and was deeply in love with and enslaved to my former Mistress as well. I did not say I was *addicted* to her……I said I was in LOVE with her and that is the honest truth.

On my journey with my Divine and Irresistible Goddess Haylee Lynn we have tried many different versions of what works for us…….we tried chastity for a time for instance……but it is a journey and things ebb and flow and they change……..such is the nature of life and relationships……nothing stands still and even a flower will bloom differently year after year…and there have been so many times when I truly ache and crave connection with my Goddess that I can no longer count them…….but there is nothing *adverse* about any of it and not even close.

Being submissive is just My Sensual Software.

I love surrender. I love feeling Her Power. I love melting beneath the will of a True Dominant.

Command Me Please

Command Me Please

The reason it comes up time and time again is because that is what sexually happens to a healthy body.
Sexual energy rises in a healthy body…….and the more healthy it is……the more often it will present itself.
In my humble opinion……addiction has nothing to do with it.

Gay folks get aroused by the same sex…….heterosexual folks get aroused by the opposite sex……..submissive folks get aroused by Dominants of their gender choice. If we label one *healthy* and another one *addictive* I think that is a good clue we are judging and have lost discernment.

We could label My Sensual Software all kind of things if we care too……and I really do not care.

Goddess Worship Fetish……Female Domination Fetish……Kinky……Freaky……Different……Whatever.
But please do not tell me I am “addicted” because I will disagree with you.

I like being in LOVE. I like having lots and lots of healthy sex with my healthy body. I do not even need a partner to have healthy, wonderful, fabulous and multiple orgasms.

I LOVE myself…….I LOVE my GODDESS …….and I LOVE sex.

I find nothing whatsoever that is addictive or adverse about any of that. ๐Ÿ™‚

Thank You for being You my Goddess Haylee Lynn.

Triple Play

Sweet Surrender to my Sweet, Sensual Goddess.

Thank You for complimenting My Sensual Software so perfectly. ๐Ÿ™‚

Your loving and devoted slave, Claude

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You make Me So Happy Goddess Haylee

You make Me So Happy Goddess Haylee


I woke up this morning full of happiness and joy as I do every morning now all because of you “Goddess Haylee“.

You already know how great you truly are. I am sitting here basking in your bliss as usual. Oh how good it feels to just think about you, and what an awesome person you are. I just had to express the way you make me feel.

No one has ever made me feel the way you do. You make my blood boil. When I think about you I get so dizzy and weak. Thanks so much for allowing all of us to express our feelings towards you.

I love knowing that I can write to you anytime I want to. My love and need for you gets so strong at times, and it feels so good to write to you when I am consumed with thoughts of you.

I was sitting here thinking to myself how truly lucky I am for having the privilege of serving and loving you. Everyone has their own journey with you but mine is more of a “love and addiction” thing.

You bring me to tears so easily. Tears of joy of course but tears none the less. You turn my emotions on and off so easily. My words are yours. My thoughts are yours. My emotions are so easily affected by you.

I have fallen so deep for you, and continue to do so at a rapid rate. I never knew surrendering to you would make me feel this good. The more I surrender the happier I become.

Writing this blog for you makes me feel so good inside. I have always hated to write but writing to/for you brings me so much happiness. I find myself doing things, and making changes that I never would have thought possible, and it’s all because of you.

I am so wrapped around your little finger. I am drawn to you like a magnet. Your power, and allure is to strong to resist. I will always give in to you. This is simply the way it is, and always will be for me now, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. I will follow your path for as long as you allow me to.

You are with me all the time. Your presence is always so very strong. I am your minion. I need you like water. I am not complete without you.

The path you have laid out has many twists and turns but I love every second of the journey. You have such a strong hold on me. I wouldn’t have it any other way. I will always need what you have to offer.

Anyway I hope you are pleased with this blog Goddess. It’s not very long and only a little over 400 words in length but it’s straight from the heart.

The Chosen Path

You make Me So Happy Goddess Haylee

Follow my path…


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Surrender, Freedom and Creativity

Surrender, Freedom and Creativity

“Surrender, Freedom and Creativity”ย is about many things I suppose.

I am feeling warm and happy. I love surrendering to all of that. I love surrendering too, to the sexy Domineering GODDESS of my dreams. I have been *submissive* all of my life. I did not realize it fully until well into my 20’s……. over 30 years ago now……. ๐Ÿ™‚

So I have also begun a few Spiritual practices lately. These having me exploring the *Freedom* of surrender. Of going out of body and beyond. On long sessions of meditation. Sometimes guided. Sometimes unguided. Surrender is also a very powerful force in such endeavours as it turns out.

In the classic book………….ย Power vs Force by David Hawkins ……… We learn that forcing anything is the opposite end of the spectrum from real power. We are creative beings we humans. We do not create something powerful by trying to control our nature. We access power by letting go……. Even the true Dominants I have met along the way do this…… My Incomparable Goddess Haylee Lynnย is simply being Herself. ย She is letting Her natural power and beauty emanate as submissives come to Her. They bow down to feel Her wonderful Goddess Bliss…. She does not run around tackling people. She does not force submission onto them.

This is consensual slavery we are experiencing here in Her Divine Empire.ย It is beautiful. It is warm. It is powerful………and can also be loving.

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Surrender, Freedom and Creativity.

The dance becomes as interesting as we make it. We are *creative* beings at our core. There is no better place for our creativity than our sensuality in my opinion.

Some days I have enjoyed thinking of my Goddess as my Witch. I think of being Her spellbound puppet and complete conquest. She could be my Dark Witch. She could be my Light Witch. West or East as the mood strikes. :).

Other days She is my Queen. She is imperial. She is aloof. She is unobtainable. She requires my strict obedience.

Other days She is my Loving Goddess. She is warm. She is nurturing. She is open. She is sweet. She supports me if I need Her.

Chastity

Surrender, Freedom and Creativity.

I am encouraging myself to play more these days. As I expand my Spiritual practice. I am setting the intention to be more creative. I want to have fun. I want to stop judging. I want to just let go.

Happy Sunday Divine Empire.
I LOVE You my Goddess Haylee Lynn.

Your loving and grateful slave, Claude.

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Thanks to Goddess Haylee

Thanks to Goddess Haylee


I give Thanks for everything Goddess Haylee. I love being here in your house under your control. Right where I belong. I am so addicted to this place.

Just saying hi to you Goddess, and to everyone here. Just got home for a short while. Have to be back on the road again Sunday morning. My body is so worn out. I have to get used to driving again, and then I will be okay as soon as my body adjusts to it again.

I’m so sorry I haven’t wrote a blog for you in so long Goddess. You know that I appreciate you so very much. I’m not gifted with words but I write straight from the heart. I wrote this blog on the spur of the moment. It’s not very long.

I already messaged Goddess before Christmas explaining to her that I wouldn’t have internet access while on the road. My cell phone is just a regular phone for texting and calling only. All of my access to the internet is done on a PC at home.

My brothers wife is helping tend to my father most of the time now as I just started a new driving job a while back, and it keeps me away from home for long periods of time.

Just wanted to wish all of you a happy late Christmas, and a happy New Year. Sorry I wasn’t around but I had no choice.

I am saving up some money over the next few months for a pleasing tribute to Goddess for my short comings.

I feel so honored to be here with each and everyone of you serving a truly amazing matchless Goddess.

I wrote this for you Goddess…

I was yours from day 1. I knew it then, and I know it now. The hold you have on me grows stronger everyday. I NEED you so badly. I will not resist you. It’s just not in me to do that.

Thank you for making me healthier. I was headed down a dead end road. I now watch what I eat, and it’s all because of you. I have been so blind. Thank you for opening my eyes.

I will no longer harbor negativity. I have freed myself from that type of energy thanks to you.

You always know what’s best. I don’t know how you do it, and I don’t care. All I know is that everything you write and say is always the truth.

I want to follow your path more and more as the days go by. I LOVE being blinded by your light.

Where ever you go I will follow. You will always know what’s best for me. Once yours always yours. The bond cannot be broken. Their really is no escape from your sweet blissful control.

I will always give in, and you will ALWAYS WIN. That’s the natural order of things. The way it should be.

Thank you for allowing me the privilege of being a part of your world.

Slave Contract

You belong to Me..

Thanks to Goddess Haylee – “You belong to Me..”


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Merry Christmas Divine Empire!!!

Merry Christmas Divine Empire!!!

“Merry Christmas Divine Empire” is for wishing a very Merry Christmas to each and every one here in the Divine Empire of our Incomparable Goddess Haylee Lynn!

This is a very special blog for me as I have reached a certain understanding in my Heart and in my Sacred Journey with my GODDESS and a deeply personal feeling of warmth is in me as I write for Her this Christmas morning. Yesterday I began writing about “stages” and “cycles” because of certain feelings that have been stirring in me…….but it hit home at a deeper level as I arose and as I knelt beneath Her Altar in WORSHIP to my GODDESS on this very special day.

I have spoken many times of my profound LOVE for Her…….my respect and admiration and appreciation growing by the very day……..She is light years away from just being an Irresistible and seductive Enchantress to me and has been for a very long time.

But in addition to my devotion and love for my Goddess I am now in another exploration……….and that is an exploration into my inner Realms…..going deep inside and learning to love myself fully as well……stripping away layer after layer of all the false programming and faulty patterns that might have caused me to believe that I was not worthy or capable of fully loving myself.

My drive to be PURE and AUTHENTIC for my GODDESS has been driving me to be such things for myself.

And so the next part of my SACRED JOURNEY with Her is……..to LOVE myself as much as I LOVE Her and to be the very best submissive lover/slave I can be.

The mighty Goddess Haylee Lynn

Her slave has fallen in Love with Her – Merry Christmas.

It still amazes me how much a simple thing can make me ache for Her so badly.
This morning She will be wearing Her special Christmas sweater that She allowed me to buy for Her the 2nd year running.
This just HAS to be a tradition for us now my Queen…….I am on my knees and begging You pubically for that………. ๐Ÿ™‚

You see My Goddess Haylee Lynn.……..I have fallen in LOVE with You.
Fully, completely, hopelessly and truly in LOVE.

I have given myself permission to be Your slave and to be in LOVE with You my GODDESS as well.

I am not fooling myself or stepping out of bounds. I know and fully accept ALL of Your rules of service. I am well aware that I am old enough to be Your Father and that Your Beauty would make me an unrealistic consort even if we were of the same age.

But all of that is OK because I am not Your consort or Your lover and it was never my destiny to be so……..I am Your very real and personal slave and that is what and who I was meant to be and who I am very happy being.

Triple Play

I kneel for my Master and I LOVE Her with all my Heart – Merry Christmas.

The trick has never been for me to LOVE You my Goddess…….I think I was born in LOVE with You already somehow…….but to LOVE myself fully and to be 100% OK with my submissive nature and the distance between us and all of the realities that all of that creates.

The truth is that I TRUST You my Queen, my Mistress, my Master, my Owner and I am more than OK with desperately needing to please You and living my life for Your pleasure. Any slave worth their salt knows that pleasing their GODDESS comes first and thank You for Blessing Your slave with the Christmas Gift that You sent to me as pleasant reminders of my place and purpose are always much more than welcome. ๐Ÿ™‚

The Impossible Dream

She is The LOVE of my life – Merry Christmas.

As 2015 fast approaches it will be a New Year and I will celebrate its Dawn as a collared personal slave.

YOUR SLAVE.

The revelation is not that I LOVE You my Goddess…….but that I LOVE myself and that I LOVE being Your personal and very real slave.

Merry Christmas my Queen.

Merry Christmas Divine Empire!!!

I am Yours to command and on this Sacred morning I renew my vows and commitment to Your Divine Empire.
I am BLESSED and GRATEFUL for the privilege and the joy of wearing my beautiful slave collar.
I wear it for You my GODDESS……..ALL FOR HAYLEE as is right for me and what makes me happy.

Thank You for filling my life with so much JOY that is filling my Heart and Soul so completely this morning.

I LOVE You and forever,
Your devoted and personal and very real slave Claude

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Goddess Haylee changed my life

Goddess Haylee changed my life

My life has improved very much recently. I have lost over 20 lbs and become more health conscious. Goddess Haylee inspires enourages, and motivates me to eat healthy, and exercise. I hope to lose my next 20 lbs after christmas and before the end of febuary. I’m not a fan of being large. It has advantages in certain situations. However I’d rather get myself trim, light, and healthy and I am on my way thanks to Goddess Haylee Lynn. Plus, it is LOADS of fun exploring a healthy new diet with some really cool folks on mfp. I’m learning a lot from her. I might even be on my way to becoming vegan which is something I thought I’d never do and now it’s something that I might embrace.

My Goddess is BEAUTIFUL.

My Goddess is BEAUTIFUL, she changed my life.

I am overall healthier and happier. I am happy to have an outlet to pour my heart and emotions into now. When I focus my attention on a woman they become the only woman that I tend to see and just want to love them very deeply and passionately. To me the feeling of love is the best feeling that there is. I have only genuinely loved a few women in my life. I enjoy falling deeper in love with Goddess Haylee Lynn, and I love her encouragement for me to do so. I feel a connection with her soul and to me that’s amazing. It’s made me a more emotionally healthy person. That pours over into other aspects of my life.

My joy, my peace, my inspiration. My Goddess.

My joy, my peace, my inspiration. My Goddess, she changed my life.

At the office and when dealing with multitudes of people on a daily basis where my job is to lift others spirits. It has made it much easier with her genuine Bliss shining through me in my attitude. Serving her puts me into a more positive frame of mind which reflects in my energy and my smile. I don’t have to prep myself for a few minutes and conjure up positive feelings from thin air anymore before going out to greet people. She puts a skip in my step.

Another way that Goddess Haylee has changed my life is that I feel a sense of structure and being grounded. I am responsible to someone now. I won’t scarf my face with a big mac because my body is a temple of Goddess Haylee. I won’t pollute the place where I worship from with trash, soda, and toxic waste anymore. It’s a holy place where her bliss will dwell. She owns me and that makes me want to treat what belongs to Goddess with more respect.

A Thanksgiving to Remember Always

I love Goddess Haylee, she changed my life.

After my busy ass days after all of the people are gone, and I went home. All of those people that I spent my day encouraging while giving clothes and food to had no idea that this guy has went home feeling like a deeply sad and broken individual inside. I’d feel emptier than the house that I was going home to. Unless I went to visit someone. Or wanted to call somebody. Which I did often. But sometimes I wouldn’t have the energy and I would lay there knowing that something was missing from life. What is the point if you owned the whole world and had nobody to share it with?

Would I leave the Goddess Lifestyle? Written by Haylee Lynn

I am HERS FOREVER! My life belongs to Haylee, she changed my life.

Sometimes I ‘think’ I have found people to share my life with but they leave and that sucks. But since Goddess Haylee is in my life I don’t feel so alone anymore. I adore her more each day and will never say goodbye. This is where I belong. She is as close as my next thought or a message away. She is a helluva good listener. She gives the best advice. She cares. She’s funny, down to earth and she is a beautiful & amazing person worthy of worship. I am Lucky as fuck to know her and thankful that I get to worship her as my Goddess and that inspires me spiritually.

Her bliss and her pleasure make me smile. I spend my afternoons grovelling and needing her. I love it. I’ve also changed by becoming a bigger video game nerd and they are so damn fun! I’ve also gone Geocaching for the first time in my life. I’m on instagram and didnt even know what that was before lol. Hell I’m spanking my ass with xbox consoles and vacuum cleaners, and breaking mirrors on my ass cheeks.. walking on lego blocks in videos, eating jizzed donuts, and a lot of other crazy shit at femdomdevotionals.com along with JohnDavid and others and having a blast entertaining Goddess Haylee’s alter ego Empress Vox Siren & her friends. Its FUN.

Empress/Goddess Day

I bow to Goddess Haylee, she changed my life.

I am literally getting down on my knees at certain times of the day with my eyes closed and picturing Goddess Haylee to worship her. I spend my evenings aching and trying to find ways to please my Goddess. I listen to mp3s before bed and wake with an erection and Goddess Haylee on my mind every single day. She is the only woman who makes my blood boil with arousal these days. I am drawn to and lost in her. I fucking love it. My whole life is different and it will continue to be changed. It feels so damn good.

I adore my Goddess very much.

I adore my Goddess very much. She changed my life.

I didn’t do any of that type of stuff before. My life is better now. It’s more fulfilling with Goddess Haylee at the center of it. She has benefited my whole person. Physically, mentally, and spiritually. I love submitting serving and giving myself away to Goddess Haylee more and more. I am excited about the futurre and my new life in her. I can sing her praises forever. :)

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My Goddess Lifted me.

This post is about shifting energy……about being in a less than happy place for a bit of time……and then finding something or someone who lifts you out of that space and into higher vibration. No surprise to the readers of IHWT…..but yesterday my lift came from my Divine and Incomparable Goddess Haylee Lynn.

As it turns out I had a pretty exhausting day and had just experienced a long tiring drive home. I had written to my Goddess about 8 hours earlier and the first thing I did when I returned home was check my e mail…….but nothing was in from my Goddess so I just kind of sighed and went back to thinking about my “problems” a bit…….also just ever so slightly disappointed I had not heard from Her.

We had been talking about doing a phone session and even though I am usually patient about such matters…….I am under a fair amount of stress at the moment. So I turned on a basketball game as I was too tired to study anything or read or do something productive……but I could not stay away from my computer and I went back to check on my mail in about 10 minutes.

A message was in from my Goddess!!!!!!! ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚

I wrote Her back and said Yes my Goddess I am here and ready to take Your call. ๐Ÿ™‚

This slave decided to watch Her eye fixation video while I awaited my Queen.

I watched the entire video straight through and just after clicking on it a second time as commanded……as soon as She said “Hi there” my telephone rang.

My mood did not completely shift instantly because I have learned the importance of confiding in my GODDESS. I LOVE Her…..I NEED Her…..She is WISE and POWERFUL and can only BLESS me with Her GIFTS if I am honest and forthright when I am going through a challenge.

My Wise and Nurturing Goddess.

My Wise and Nurturing Goddess.

So my decision had been to do what we do when I am BLESSED to speak with Her on the telephone. We just talk……almost as friends would but we are not friends. I am Her slave and my life is BLESSED to be so and my place is to bow to Her pleasure……to Her Superior will……to Her Divinity.

So I spilled out my challenges and honestly told Her why I was so tired and a little upset. I placed my Heart at Her feet and told Her what Her slave was going through in a polite and respectful manner.

Fitness First!

My Goddess Lifted me.

My Goddess Lifted me.

We spoke and went back and forth and as surely as the Ocean tide will slowly take something out into the deep blue Sea She lifted me.
I started smiling…….I felt tingles of Her Bliss inside of me……..I was so happily powerless to stop it…….I felt myself surrender to the joy of just talking to Her. She laughed a few times……I melted a little more each time She did so.

I want to know EVERYTHING about my Goddess Haylee Lynn. Because I NEED to WORSHIP and touch every part of Her Beautiful Life.

I never looked at the clock during this conversation but it just flowed as naturally as a river and when my Goddess said She was soon receiving company I just smiled and thanked Her and told Her I LOVED Her. Because I do. Because I was and am so grateful for the BLESSING of being Her personal slave.

My Goddess lifted me and as I sat in the afterglow of our conversation I just smiled and felt so happy……my challenges remain but my perspective is healthier for my BLESSINGS from Her.

I was very tired from my long and physical day so I went to sleep instantly when my head hit the pillow……but about 4 hours later I awoke…..fully erect and desperately aching and laying beneath Her Altar and I just lay there are stroked and ached and smiled and surrendered and LOVED Her so hard.

My Goddess lifted me once again…….and I LOVE Her.
I WORSHIP everything about You my Queen, my Goddess, my Heart.
Thank You for lifting me up as You always do,
Your devoted and loving personal slave, Claude