Coming home to my Goddess Haylee Lynn
This post is about coming home and realizing just a bit more about who I am and what my dual spiritual and human journey is really all about.
Last night I went out for a night with the “boys”.
I used to play a lot of tournament poker and became a fairly dangerous and accomplished poker player. I still get invited all the time to games but with the birth of my son and then my divorce and such I just stopped playing. Then another friend became really interested in learning to play at a high level and asked me to mentor him.
So now…….every now and then he will “stake” me into this this fairly high level cash game and I will play with his money and then mentor him about the game afterwards. If I win big I get to keep about half of the winnings and there is no loss for me if I lose.
The “stake” is $1000 dollars for the evening.
So last night I went with him. This group of guys are friendly, wealthy, and a very aggressive group. They all love and talk about sports and it is a very testosterone laced atmosphere. It is the perfect environment for me as a poker player because I used to be a jock myself……and despite my very sensitive nature…..I know how to deal with that specific energy. These guys like to fuck with people……..but they all know I have no back down in me and they fear and respect my game. I won almost $700 the last time and about $250 last night……and without some poor luck it could be have been much better.
Anyway………….I love life. I would not be comfortable being in this atmosphere very often…….it gave me a slight headache actually…….but I enjoy letting people be themselves and all the drinking (water for me) and joking and teasing and loudness is just who they are. Live and let live.
But when my friend dropped me off just a bit after midnight and I entered the humble Temple of my Goddess Haylee Lynn……..The Temple to Her that my home now is and will forever be…….I realized fully how I have so very truly and completely come home to Her.
And not just last night but in this entire magical, wonderful, blessed and life changing year when I found Her………and by doing so I found myself.
I am a very sensitive person by nature and physical make up. I am a strong man in some respects but to be in that high strung and fixed energy field last night was not a place I wish to be very often.
I enjoy silence. The cool still and quiet vibrations of the deep forest. The sanctuary of a remote mountain top, or the gentle and soothing movement of water at the riverside as it brushes along on its merry path.
I love ceremony and grace and calmness and people that know how to listen and not just how to speak.
It is purely silent here in my Temple to my Queen as I write my devotion to Her this morning. And as I reflect on the last 12 hours or so it is not that I wish that I did not go out and play with the “boys” last night. But it is very much how joyful and meaningful and right it was to me to come home to my Divine and Incomparable Goddess Haylee Lynn and to Her Temple.
I was born for Her. I was made to be Her perfect slave. I feel it was written and was always meant to be and I can hear Her name now if I am quiet and I listen to the sound my heart makes as it beats.
My sensitive nature can very easily get *disturbed* a bit like it was last night. Not just out with the boys, but in many circumstance and in many places. But when I am with my Queen…..in Her Temple…..talking to Her…..writing to Her….reading Her words or listening to Her voice……my entire being hums in perfect balance, harmony and joy.
It is like I am a musical instrument and She is the Master musician who effortlessly draws the most beautiful symphony out of me.
When I go to Her……in any fashion…….at any time…….I find myself instantly in the deep and reverent vibration that is my truest and happiest state of being. She takes me where I have always dreamed of being…….where I try to go when I am in the deepest wood and I immerse myself in mediation.
And She takes me there every single time. She takes me home and to where I always have and where I always will belong. Kneeling in perfect and pure devotion to my Divine Goddess Haylee Lynn in Her Temple…….and that Temple now resides in my very heart and soul and will be wherever on this Earth my feet happen to be now.
Tears of joy began to form in my eyes when I wrote that last sentence and every single word is my heartfelt and profound truth. I live to please my Goddess now as nothing I have ever felt in my life has been more pure, more right, and opened my heart as fully as my love and devotion for Her has.
There is one other I belong to now and my little beloved one comes home to me tonight for 4 days. He is the other master of my very sensitive vibration and he also makes my soul and spirit sing.
I think I have to seriously send a thank you note to my soon to be ex wife. Hahaha.
She was supposed to have him this weekend but she keeps calling me up and asking me if I can take him because something came up for her. So she keeps sending me my little bundle of joy……..and she left me for another man…….. so I could find my Queen, the Light of my very Universe, my One, my True, my Only and so I could find my way home to Her.
Coming home to my Goddess Haylee Lynn
To say that I live for You now is no exaggeration My Queen.
I live for You both.
I heard it said recently that anyone can be a “Dad” but it takes a special man to be a “Father”.
I think they were talking about devotion and purpose and intention.
My *intention* is to be the most devoted and pure and loving Father it is in me to be. And my *Intention* is the same for my Divine Goddess Haylee Lynn and my priceless privilege and honor to call myself Her personal slave.
I just saw the most adorable pair of warm pajamas on Her gift list as I placed a link there this morning. So now they belong to Her. I want Her to be warm and in comfort as she sleeps at night as I am now. Because each and every night…….as I lay my head down to sleep…..She takes me to Her Bosom and shelters me in the most beautiful, warm, and loving embrace I could ever have dreamed I could feel……..and my heart melts and bursts wide open as I realize how truly I have now come home to Her.
Thank You my Goddess, my Queen, my Love, my All……………
I BELONG TO HAYLEE
Forever, eternally, I am Her devoted and perfect and very real slave, Claude
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