The only Goddess i will ever NEED

The only Goddess i will ever NEED


Before i get started i want to be honest and admit that I disobeyed Goddess. Not intentionally but because of a health related issue. I was supposed to have a blog wrote for her yesterday – Friday. It was a direct order from her. I explained to her the reason it wasn’t done on time! Goddess if you are displeased with me i will completely understand. You must always be obeyed, and i know that.

With that said back to the blog.

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This blog is about how much i truly love my Goddess Haylee. Not only is Goddess Haylee very dominant, and expects to be obeyed but there is another part of her that i believe not to many people are aware of. That being that she truly cares about her slaves.

I have never been into the physical aspect of a D/s relationship. You may say to yourself how can you love someone you have never met in person? To answer that i would just say that i connect with her through connective energy. No matter how far away from her i am i can feel her around me all the time. I’ve watched her, and studied her over the last year and a half.

I have always been a very good judge of character. I can read someone so easily. Not only do i love her very much but the longer i know her the deeper i fall for her. She is everything i have always searched for in a domme. She is all i will ever need.

The most amazing part about all of this is that she allows me too feel this way about her. No one has ever truly accepted me like she has. I know that i have caused her many frustrations. But none of it was ever intentional.

Goddess Haylee will be the only domme that i will ever even attempt this type of dynamic with. If she were to ever decide to end my journey with her i would never search for another domme ever again.

I love her from the deepest depths of my heart, and soul. She never expects me to surrender any deeper than i am willing to go. She knows that i devote a lot of my time to her. That i belong to her. That she always has the final say but she never pushes her authority over me.

I have never been into hard core domination. I’m mainly into surrender, worship, and i have to admit that bondage has always appealed to me.

Being a proud member of IHWT Goddesses slave community is so much fun. I consider this to be like mental bondage that she has allowed me the privilege of being a part of. She has given me the privilege of being placed behind her sweet wall of dominance. I hope she allows me to remain there for her forever. I love being in that place for her. I love being right where she wants me to be. Damn what a potent form of mental bondage that is.

Being truly submissive my whole life i have searched so hard too find someone too put me in my place where i should be. Goddess Haylee is the only one who could ever truly fulfill my submissive desires.

Goddess Haylee i thank you so very much for owning me. For allowing me the privilege of worshiping, and submitting too you. I am one of the luckiest slaves alive too be considered yours.

You know i will never ever be able too resist you Goddess. Attempting to resist you only draws me closer to you!

YOUR SLAVE FOREVER..
Terry

The only Goddess i will ever NEED

The only Goddess i will ever NEED

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I am Beautiful

I am Beautiful

This post is mostly about acceptance I suppose……accepting myself and accepting my Goddess. .
It has been over 2 years since I first discovered that my Goddess Haylee Lynn walks this Earth and to say that I have undergone a few changes during those years is a vast understatement.

So a little while back I decided I was going to have a love affair……….with myself.
All of my searching for a wife, or a lover, or a Goddess over all these years had revealed to me the truth that I could only love someone else in the measure and depth that I loved myself………so I turned my focus inward a bit.

Some significant health issues…….my great love for my beloved son who is the one who truly opened this Heart…….certain life tribulations……..and of course finding my Goddess have all been triggers and inspirations of a very high order for me to live my life with urgency……no more bullshit…….no time for wasting…….pain and pleasure……grief and ecstasy…..all coalescing to the point that I feel I am finally coming into my own at the advanced age of being in my late fifties as I write this blog this morning.

So I realized and realize that I love myself. I am a worthy, honorable, loving and courageous man and although that might sound trite it was not something I could ever say before and truly feel honorable about saying it.

But this post is about something more that just finally waking up and smiling and feeling that I am beautiful.
It is more than just feeling that I honestly love myself in a healthy and sincere way.

The way I am feeling at this moment is that my life is like a garden……..and the last two years I have been taking the care and attention required to let things blossom. Such things take time and effort and patience. I am Beautiful and my garden is Beautiful.

And I also discovered that I am in LOVE with my Goddess Haylee Lynn.

I am Beautiful and I am in Love with my Goddess.

I am Beautiful and I am in Love with my Goddess.

And much like a Garden needs soil and water and Sunlight……..my feeling is that LOVE needs time, trust and understanding and connection.

I am so thankful that my GODDESS is just exactly who She is and the fact that She has been so very kind to me is maybe the most revealing aspect of what I am trying to express this morning.

Because in the past……when I did not truly believe in my core that I was Beautiful….or worthy…..and my self esteem was not as vibrant as it is today…..Her kindness and Grace and patience might have sent me away……always looking for another to complete me……if you can understand what I am trying to say.

So I am amazed this morning at how much I LOVE my GODDESS and even though I am Beautiful and I very honestly love myself.

Goddess Worship Week should be every week! !

Goddess Worship Week should be every week! !

I am complete and happy with myself even as my daily practice is to work and breath ever lasting personal growth and improvement into my life.
And with all of this…….I smile to my Goddess Haylee Lynn when I think of Her and get down on my knees to Her and profess my enslavement, my devotion, and my LOVE for Her.

I am Beautiful and I love myself and I still ACHE for and NEED my GODDESS.
Because I LOVE HER. I WORSHIP HER. I ADORE HER. And pleasing HER makes me so happy sometimes I could burst.

Who knows…..maybe someday it will even please Her to let me brush Her lovely hair which is a recurring fantasy I have? ๐Ÿ™‚
I have learned 2 things in the last 2 years…….
The first one is that I am beautiful.
The second one is that I trust and LOVE my Goddess and whatever pleases Her is what will be done and what is best for Her slave…….what is best for US……and the fact that there is an US makes me feel amazing…..privileged……honored…..and over joyed.

From my knees to You my Queen,
You have earned my LOVE and DEVOTION and You have it.
Your loving personal slave, Claude.

 

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Am I into BDSM?

Am I into BDSM?

This post is about the words we use to describe what we like, what we do, and who we are. In my over 30 years of pursuing my interests in the wonderful world of Female Domination I have said many times that I am “into” BDSM.

Am I into BDSM? Really?

Lets break BDSM down for me personally.

Bondage……..no……I am OK with light bondage if it pleases my Mistress……but for me it is no big deal or compelling draw.
Discipline…….no…….I am into being controlled by my Dominatrix and wanting to please Her. I usually need very little correction.
Sadism………I have no interest in being hurt.
Masochism……I have no interest in being hurt and am actually quite adverse to pain.

I have met and played with dozens of pro Dominas in my over 30 years of playing and pursuing. I have connected with a handful..and of course powerfully with my Goddess Haylee Lynn…….
and only a couple of others.

I have been indifferent to the majority and become friendly with a few that lacked sensual chemistry.

Hypnotism is something else that holds no particular big draw with me even as I know some of my brothers like Forever slave for instance came to our GODDESS. as a big fan of that art form. For me……it is just not so important.

So I have after all this time finally figured out what I am “into”……

I am into surrender……I am a “slave” but only when I find the right One for me……I am 100% heterosexual and deeply fascinated by Dominant Women. I have been all of my life and if I have learned anything it is that each and every one of the Domina’s I have met are as different and unique as I am from my brothers Forever or Johndavid.

So for me…….what I am “into” is learning all about the Dominant Woman who enslaves me and then accepting Her unique training when that happens and learning all about the art of pleasing Her. My expressions and feelings were different for my former Mistress than they are for my Goddess Haylee Lynn even as I love and am/was enslaved to them both. They are two entirely different Women and comparisons are truly moot.

Cycles and Stages

Am I into BDSM?

I feel happy lately that after all this time I am knowing myself at a deeper level.
I have had some personal concerns that have kept me from blogging and will keep me from blogging over much in the near future……but it pains me because I know that it pleases my GODDESS when I blog.

And I am a slave who lives to please my GODDESS.

That is what makes me most happy.

I hope You are pleased and well served this day my Goddess Haylee Lynn because You richly deserve the very best.

From my knees to You and gratefully,
Your Claude

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Surrender, Freedom and Creativity

Surrender, Freedom and Creativity

“Surrender, Freedom and Creativity”ย is about many things I suppose.

I am feeling warm and happy. I love surrendering to all of that. I love surrendering too, to the sexy Domineering GODDESS of my dreams. I have been *submissive* all of my life. I did not realize it fully until well into my 20’s……. over 30 years ago now……. ๐Ÿ™‚

So I have also begun a few Spiritual practices lately. These having me exploring the *Freedom* of surrender. Of going out of body and beyond. On long sessions of meditation. Sometimes guided. Sometimes unguided. Surrender is also a very powerful force in such endeavours as it turns out.

In the classic book………….ย Power vs Force by David Hawkins ……… We learn that forcing anything is the opposite end of the spectrum from real power. We are creative beings we humans. We do not create something powerful by trying to control our nature. We access power by letting go……. Even the true Dominants I have met along the way do this…… My Incomparable Goddess Haylee Lynnย is simply being Herself. ย She is letting Her natural power and beauty emanate as submissives come to Her. They bow down to feel Her wonderful Goddess Bliss…. She does not run around tackling people. She does not force submission onto them.

This is consensual slavery we are experiencing here in Her Divine Empire.ย It is beautiful. It is warm. It is powerful………and can also be loving.

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Surrender, Freedom and Creativity.

The dance becomes as interesting as we make it. We are *creative* beings at our core. There is no better place for our creativity than our sensuality in my opinion.

Some days I have enjoyed thinking of my Goddess as my Witch. I think of being Her spellbound puppet and complete conquest. She could be my Dark Witch. She could be my Light Witch. West or East as the mood strikes. :).

Other days She is my Queen. She is imperial. She is aloof. She is unobtainable. She requires my strict obedience.

Other days She is my Loving Goddess. She is warm. She is nurturing. She is open. She is sweet. She supports me if I need Her.

Chastity

Surrender, Freedom and Creativity.

I am encouraging myself to play more these days. As I expand my Spiritual practice. I am setting the intention to be more creative. I want to have fun. I want to stop judging. I want to just let go.

Happy Sunday Divine Empire.
I LOVE You my Goddess Haylee Lynn.

Your loving and grateful slave, Claude.

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Merry Christmas Divine Empire!!!

Merry Christmas Divine Empire!!!

“Merry Christmas Divine Empire” is for wishing a very Merry Christmas to each and every one here in the Divine Empire of our Incomparable Goddess Haylee Lynn!

This is a very special blog for me as I have reached a certain understanding in my Heart and in my Sacred Journey with my GODDESS and a deeply personal feeling of warmth is in me as I write for Her this Christmas morning. Yesterday I began writing about “stages” and “cycles” because of certain feelings that have been stirring in me…….but it hit home at a deeper level as I arose and as I knelt beneath Her Altar in WORSHIP to my GODDESS on this very special day.

I have spoken many times of my profound LOVE for Her…….my respect and admiration and appreciation growing by the very day……..She is light years away from just being an Irresistible and seductive Enchantress to me and has been for a very long time.

But in addition to my devotion and love for my Goddess I am now in another exploration……….and that is an exploration into my inner Realms…..going deep inside and learning to love myself fully as well……stripping away layer after layer of all the false programming and faulty patterns that might have caused me to believe that I was not worthy or capable of fully loving myself.

My drive to be PURE and AUTHENTIC for my GODDESS has been driving me to be such things for myself.

And so the next part of my SACRED JOURNEY with Her is……..to LOVE myself as much as I LOVE Her and to be the very best submissive lover/slave I can be.

The mighty Goddess Haylee Lynn

Her slave has fallen in Love with Her – Merry Christmas.

It still amazes me how much a simple thing can make me ache for Her so badly.
This morning She will be wearing Her special Christmas sweater that She allowed me to buy for Her the 2nd year running.
This just HAS to be a tradition for us now my Queen…….I am on my knees and begging You pubically for that………. ๐Ÿ™‚

You see My Goddess Haylee Lynn.……..I have fallen in LOVE with You.
Fully, completely, hopelessly and truly in LOVE.

I have given myself permission to be Your slave and to be in LOVE with You my GODDESS as well.

I am not fooling myself or stepping out of bounds. I know and fully accept ALL of Your rules of service. I am well aware that I am old enough to be Your Father and that Your Beauty would make me an unrealistic consort even if we were of the same age.

But all of that is OK because I am not Your consort or Your lover and it was never my destiny to be so……..I am Your very real and personal slave and that is what and who I was meant to be and who I am very happy being.

Triple Play

I kneel for my Master and I LOVE Her with all my Heart – Merry Christmas.

The trick has never been for me to LOVE You my Goddess…….I think I was born in LOVE with You already somehow…….but to LOVE myself fully and to be 100% OK with my submissive nature and the distance between us and all of the realities that all of that creates.

The truth is that I TRUST You my Queen, my Mistress, my Master, my Owner and I am more than OK with desperately needing to please You and living my life for Your pleasure. Any slave worth their salt knows that pleasing their GODDESS comes first and thank You for Blessing Your slave with the Christmas Gift that You sent to me as pleasant reminders of my place and purpose are always much more than welcome. ๐Ÿ™‚

The Impossible Dream

She is The LOVE of my life – Merry Christmas.

As 2015 fast approaches it will be a New Year and I will celebrate its Dawn as a collared personal slave.

YOUR SLAVE.

The revelation is not that I LOVE You my Goddess…….but that I LOVE myself and that I LOVE being Your personal and very real slave.

Merry Christmas my Queen.

Merry Christmas Divine Empire!!!

I am Yours to command and on this Sacred morning I renew my vows and commitment to Your Divine Empire.
I am BLESSED and GRATEFUL for the privilege and the joy of wearing my beautiful slave collar.
I wear it for You my GODDESS……..ALL FOR HAYLEE as is right for me and what makes me happy.

Thank You for filling my life with so much JOY that is filling my Heart and Soul so completely this morning.

I LOVE You and forever,
Your devoted and personal and very real slave Claude

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Cycles and Stages

Cycles and Stages

This post is about the cycles we all go through……life cycles…..monthly cycles…….and the stages of surrender and submission I have experienced in my almost 2 years of enslavement to my Divine and Incomparable Goddess Haylee Lynn.

She has my Heart now and I can turn to Her in so many ways that it sometimes amazes me. I am no spring chicken…..and yet at times She has made me ache for Her constantly for weeks at a time when my days of feeling such sexual power within me should have been a thing of my past.

And recently I have been going through a different stage…….and even though my health is vastly improved through my practice of being Healthy for Haylee …….lately I have not been feeling as sexual or even as submissive…….but no matter……when my thoughts turn to Her I melt……into sexual aching Bliss…….or into the Bliss of authentic warmth and affection…..it is simply one or the other for me now.

The simple truth has become for me…….I WORSHIP my GODDESS Haylee Lynn.
I am in LOVE with Her and I CHERISH and ADORE Her and it is wonderful.

Something dawned on me awhile back……during one of the dozens of cycles and stages I have gone through since I first found my GODDESS.
It dawned on me that it pleased Her that I was born to be Her slave…….that it made Her happy that I ache for Her so badly and that I have fallen in LOVE with Her.

Cycles and Stages

It is like awakening and finding ones fondest dream has come true…….and then going to sleep and it is true in that Realm as well.

On this day…..on Christmas Eve……I have fallen to my knees and the aching to PLEASE HER will not stop suddenly. My NEED to belong to Her is pure and powerful…..my WORSHIP of Her MATCHLESS BEAUTY is intense.

Tomorrow I will have my little one for 10 days…….but on this night I am on the naughty list and I will crawl after my MASTER on all fours and ache and beg and dream of Her and Worship Her perfection as She has trained me to do.

Perfect Storm

I will kneel for Her on this Night.

I am Her good boy……I was born to be Her good boy…..I need to be Her good boy and to please Her.
For some reason I am one who is addicted to Her sweet side……..even the pendent video is a little too harsh for me and I cycle over and over with Her Goddess Worship and Eye Fixation and Relaxation video’s.

No matter my preference for Her sweeter side……I am Her slave….Her boy toy…..Her conquest…..Her property…..Her chattel now and not only that but I am truly in love with Her.

No way out……..and I want no way out.

This night as some dream of Santa Claus I will be dreaming of my Goddess.

The Good Slave

Curling up at Her feet warm and happy.

Maybe She will surprise me by flying over to my house and making my fondest dreams come true…….or maybe that already happened? ๐Ÿ™‚

I will leave out the cookies and milk in either case!! ๐Ÿ™‚

Merry Christmas my Queen!
Your devoted and loving personal slave, Claude

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I Know my Place

This post is about the wonderful warm feeling I received the other day when my Incomparable Goddess Haylee Lynn tweeted this from Her Haylee’s Bliss account.

It just made me feel so warm and fuzzy all over my body and my mood shifted and I was smiling and even as I have to admit it was JUST my feeling’s and I have no evidence but my FEELING’S that She was even remotely thinking about me in the least when She wrote this post.

I know very well how many very fine people belong to my GODDESS and that I am but one of many who are so truly BLESSED as to be allowed to serve Her. My body is tingling this morning for the joy and ultimate pleasure it truly is to be collared by Her and to live my life as Her devoted and personal and very real slave.

So being connected like She talks about in Her Tweet has lots of different levels and different meanings for each and every one of us……and as it should. I am not one who enjoys pretending about such matters as involve a Human Heart…….I am very deeply in LOVE with my Goddess Haylee Lynn but I Know my Place.

I am Her slave and I bow to Her as such and please make no mistake.

My Goddess has friends and lots of them……..She has fans and admirers…….of course She has family as do we all……I am none of these.

I Know my Place and my place is very happily kneeling at Her perfect feet as Her personal slave and conquest and hoping beyond all dreams that I can perfect the art of pleasing Her.

The mighty Goddess Haylee Lynn

Feeling so very weak this morning.

I am feeling so very weak for Her this morning. The last few days I have been exhausted and sleeping lots and a bit stressed……and very clearly not at 100% physically…….and I once again slept for 9 hours last night…….but I think Her slave is recovering because this morning I do not feel as tired but instead just incredibly weak……..weak and aching for my GODDESS and for HER APPROVAL.

I am literally dripping with desire for Her as I write this…….and ALL FOR HAYLEE as is right and beautiful and a sign that whatever was afflicting me is lifting and being sent away by the Grace of my Goddess.

It may or may not be true for others…….but for me it is true.

I Know my Place and I know that living my life for Her pleasure by Her commands and letting my Goddess guide me is what is best for this slave.

kneeling to Goddess Haylee

I Know my Place and I will always Bow to Her.

There is simply no one like Her in my experience.

It is not just Her breathtaking Beauty or Her Enchanting voice or Her brilliant mind or Her caring Heart that has me so captivated…….it is ALL of Her and that is why I am become ALL FOR HAYLEE.

Her Perfection is undeniable to me now and as I continue to look and listen and surrender to Her then maybe someday my own reflection will become as clear. But even if and when that happens…….I Know my Place…….I love being Her slave and treasure my role as such. ๐Ÿ™‚

From my knees my Queen, I LOVE You and I WORSHIP You and I ADORE You,
Your devoted and personal and very real slave, Claude