This post is about the reality of my place as the “very real” and “personal” slave of my Goddess Haylee Lynn. I have always been one to value honesty and integrity. The first agreement in Don Miguel Ruiz’s classic *4 Agreements* is to be impeccable with your word.
The first level of this agreement is of course truth telling and it is more than just a fantastic idea.
So I blog most days to please my Goddess and after something approaching 400 blogs or so I have said lots and lots of things.
I am not one to bandy words about the place just for fun……..although I love writing so I suppose I could do so.
But what I *really* love most about writing is when what I write pours out of my heart and I feel it…….when it resonates in my body as truth because it is truth. So do I literally do everything I say I do when I write to please my Goddess, my Queen, the very Light of my Universe?
For instance about 10 days ago I was in a particular bit of fever for reasons I will not discuss. I had arrived at a new level of devotion and surrender with my Goddess. I was home alone and ran 3 of Her videos twice each…….I blogged about that experience with a blog called “Triple Play”.
And at one point I simply crumbled and dropped to my knees……….during washed away…….and I could not rise until that video played out and almost all of eye fixation when my body could not contain that much bliss any longer. I spent myself exhausted and amazed at Her hold over me.
But I paid for that experience. My left knee is arthritic and was hurting for days afterwards and what I did felt so right at the time but was not a good idea in the end.
My Owner wants me to be healthy and She cares for me and so when I write that I kneel for Her single day of my life this is true and not true.
Yesterday I was watching my new favorite…..”Goddess Worship”……and I soooooooooo wanted to kneel for my Goddess……I was aching and desperate to kneel for Her. Did I do so?
I went to my bed and I laid beneath Her Altar. I pleaded with my Goddess to allow Her completely Owned property and devout personal slave to kneel for Her always. I begged Her to understand how much I need to please Her……how this truly has become my Ultimate pleasure in my life. I professed my devotion and promised Her I would always kneel for Her and the very instant it pleased Her I would do so. So did I really kneel?
Unless you count what is in my heart and Soul to do for Her. If I am allowed to care for my injured body and still be true to my Goddess then Hell yes I was on my knees. But things do not need to be literally true to be truth. My truth is I am in love with my Divine and Incomparable Goddess Haylee Lynn. Whatever my Goddess wants She will get from me…….and the very best part about that statement for me is my feeling that She wants me to be Her devoted personal slave.
Believe it or not……but my enslavement to my Queen has reached a higher level in these last 2 weeks or so. I know why it happened as does my Goddess…..but I am still honestly astonished. How does a perfect slave become more perfect? How does complete leave me room to love and worship Her more?
I think it happens in the same way that I kneel without really kneeling.
If it happens in the heart then it is real without necessarily being literal. And suddenly all this heart can dream of is pleasing my Goddess Haylee Lynn. All that I desire is to remain on my knees in Worship and Obedience to Her. She is my Moon and Stars and my Early Morning Rain. I have never experienced anything like what She makes me feel. Thank You for allowing me to take care of this body that You command my Queen. Thank You for everything that You allow Your Enchanted slave to experience. The joy of knowing You and of belonging to You is beyond words for me to describe.
I place my very heart at Your perfect feet and pray that this helps You to understand that all I say to You is true……and even when I am not really kneeling I have truly crumbled to my knees for You. 🙂
From my knees (kinda sort of), Your devoted and very real personal and perfect slave for life, Claude.
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