What’s the Opposite of “Resist”?
I have been thinking about writing about this for a while now, but this post by Goddess Haylee seemed like the perfect time. I have experienced a few stages in my following Haylee. Yes, there was a time when I resisted. I would try to relax when I was going into trance, but it took a while to learn to let go. With each time I listened to one of her MP3s, or watched the Youtube videos, I learned how to relax and let go. And some days were easier than others. Early on I went deeper with Youtube videos as I got lost in her eyes. Then I found that I went deeper with my eyes closed and Haylee‘s voice inside of my head listening to an MP3.
The next stage was that I overcame resistance in trance. As soon as I hear Haylee‘s sweet voice I let go. Sure there are days when I am distracted, or have an itch, and just can’t let go as deeply as I would like. But it is never resistance, it is distraction, and after a few minutes I relax and melt into Goddess’ words. At this stage, where I found I had resistance was when I was not in trance. I would feel resistance when I was on Facebook, or HypnoticHaylee.com, or IHWT and had doubts. I would think that I should send tribute or buy Haylee a gift and I would think of an excuse not to do so. But the more I read and paid tribute, the more I felt Goddess’ pleasure. Now I find I give freely with a grateful heart.
Now I am trying to embrace the next stage. I am not there yet, but I sense it within me sometimes. I see it in my hero – JohnDavid. That is to give in to Goddess Haylee with abandon. No resistance. Total acceptance. And in place of resistance, intentionally trying to get on Haylee‘s side against my own will. Trying to actively help her to enslave me. I am not there all the time yet, but today when I read Haylee‘s words, “Everything I do on here, and create, is a tool to enslave you further~ With you knowing this, you still can’t resist even if you want to,” my first though is “I don’t want to.” And I just want to say, “Please, enslave me more.” Someone could tell me that it is all a scam, and I would laugh and tell them, “I don’t care. I want more.” On a good day this is where I am, and I am trying to be there all the time. This is now who I want to be.
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